Convicted.

Refreshed. Relaxed. Calm. Convicted.

One word doesn’t fit, yet all describe my post-vacation state of being.

Nudges from the spirit, ignored… for the sake of “vacation”… with the excuse of needing a break.

As if God takes breaks from loving, seeing, forgiving, providing.

“Homeless
With Kids
Anything helps”
Read his sign.
Yet despite even a second chance, nothing did I give.

Or the daily opportunities, moment by moment that I missed.

Chances to shine, where instead I covered the Light.

And I see the beauty in the verse that speaks the harsh truth:

 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, (Romans 3:23)

Even more gorgeous, the truth that soon follows:

For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 6:23)

And that truth continues to convict yet renews my heart to pray this song:

Sometimes I think, what will people say of me
When I’m only just a memory
When I’m home where my soul belongs
Was I love, when no one else would show up
Was I Jesus to the least of those,
Was my worship more than a song

I want to live like that
And give it all I have
So that everything I say and do points to you
If love is who I am, then this is where I’ll stand
Recklessly abandoned, never holding back
I want to live like that

Am I proof that You are who You say You are
That grace can really change a heart, Do I live like your love is true

People pass and even if they don’t know my name
Is there evidence that I’ve changed
When they see me, do they see you?

I want to show the world the love you gave for me
I’m longing for the world to know the glory of the King

I want to live like that
And give it all I have
So that everything I say and do points to you
If love is who I am, then this is where I’ll stand
Recklessly abandoned, never holding back
I want to live like that  (“Live Like That” by Sidewalk Prophets)

And while I can’t go back and change what’s been done.

I can look forward, open heart, open hands, open mouth, saying:

I want to live like THAT.

 

 

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